Sian-ness

holiday blues holiday blues holiday blue !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg i'm so freaking bored and i am feeling extremely guilty
becoz i'm suppose to finish my thesis by now but den i actually haven really started ... it's jz alot of paragraph which haven been compiled and arranged properly T.T
y am i so freaking lazy i duno !!!!!!! arh ! i hate myself hate psychology hate everything besides my boifriend and friends and clothes and cash and food .............

huuuuu .... sorry, luckily i have none reader yet.
i'm so frustrated so have to let out abit of frustration here.
sigh sometimes i do think dat i'm the one who mess up my own life.
no one to blame, and i constantly feel lik giving up in studying, which i beleive my mom will kill me and slaughter me !!!!!!!!!!!!

wuwuwuwuwwuuu.... seriuosly feel lik banging head to the wall and jz faint lik dat, den the fairy pity me so grant me a wish......... den i would say i wanna be pretty and slim forever
wtf i am so shallow lik dat one la i duno y.

well ok ok think properly, wat do i want in life ?
my mom always says dat, be a girl/woman, most important thing in life is to marry to a good man ( @&(#(@*(#@&#(*@ i know damn sexist)
if u married to a useless man, den u're gone lik dat liao. (yor y la my lappie so damn lag)
so that's the point, i'm conditioned and being educated since young dat i need to find a good husband. and my mom only started to told me dat female is better to have their own career and dun rely on man too much, but huhuhu dat's already too late. sigh, wat to do i'm so farking lazy and i have a super good bf. i'm so spoilt !!!!!!!

ok ok ok .... enough said, thesis on !!!!

MDG sucks big time

sigh... the only thing that attracts me to keep on watch every last part of each episode is to see who got voted out !
MODEL SEARCH ? dun post it on the internet la cz u know ppl from out there could watch it as well... dun ashame Mas ok. this is not a model search ok !!!!
it's jz trying to copy some famous tv show lik american idol and all ok. and it's not FAIR at all
i wish my dad is as rich la, so that i could also win the MDG and a car lik Cindy does lo (oh not lik she's gonna win right, it's jz top 3, choi choi choi)
arh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cannot stand this show anymore !
i'm gonna stop watching edi.
i duno if she's a model material ok
even Jay got sent home ?! like... HELLO ?!
she is the only one qualified ok. Adeline is not bad but she doesn't know how to look good in front of camera so that sucks another big time.
i'm so geram la
cz i personally know someone lik Cindy
so i really dun like dun like dun like dun like someone lik dat !!!!!!
mayb i'm too conservative
the one who is trying to hint that she's a virgin (save the sex for marriage)
would stay in a hotel suite wit ONLY ONE DOUBLE BED ROOM
WIT A GUY FRIENDS ? and holding him sticking him leaning on him lik he is a bf and den afterwards told the whole wide world that HE IS NOT MY BF
.... which made things even worse
ARH
not slutty mer lik dat ?
hey i used to be really good in flirting around one, i oso think this is way too much
oh most probably i nv think of this tactic la, wtf i'm a loser ! BOO

CONCLUSION,
MDG, waste of time. dun vote la, waste money only.

sigh i dun wanna be a bitch, but i'm born lik that.