ByeBye

gonna say bye bye to this blog.

cz......
i've shifted to
belle-chia.blogspot.com

i feel like i'm nth

i think right at the beginning...
i'm already a failure.
because i always plan so far.
and the plans never go how i want them to be.

WHY !

no fancy pictures....
no fancy outings......
my life is so dull
lifeless
damn it i jz feel lik i wanna die.
FUCK THIS SHIT.
i hope i can start everything over again.

Interview

so i'm very active in finding jobs again.
reason being, i don't think i'm really that capable to run my own business wtf.
the other day i went for an interview with Citibank.
sigh, another chinese speaking work place.
i wonder if it's all fate.
why do all english ppl get to work with english ppl.
and ppl like me would jz have a cina speaking work place ?
i need someone to enlighten my English ma.
hmm, so talking about the interview, that was actually a sales position.
Internet credit card sales.
haih, sales is not my thing, but they said min is up to 3K a month.
quite tempting but u have to talk till your tongue rots everyday ler.
and with very high risk of getting scolded.
becz you would always annoy the hell out of ppl.
not sure if wanna take that job anot.
it's so far eh. and you know the traffic in KL. being stuck in the traffic jam everyday is not funny.

happy deepavali ppl.
arh those art thing is so nice.
i like the color and the blings.
haihz. kinda regretted to go UK eh.
gotta spent so much there, so i'm now very constraint with the spending,
don;t like :(
it's sales everywhere and i can't buy a thing !!
yer !
YER !!!!!
i hate that feeling when i'm broke.
ok citibank mayb i should go to you wtf.
hehehhe....
the reason why i'm updating this blog so often is
yea, firstly damn free.
holiday and my boifrend only knows to sleep !!!! so pissed ar !!!!
he edi slept till 11am today ok. now still sleep.
damn i wan a new boyfriend i mean it ! so sian hokay.
fuck it i'm so annoyed i don't know what exactly i'm pissed of.
secondly,
i'm very in love with this new keyboard.
it's kinda like a macbook's keyboard for desktop heheh
i like i like i like.
that's why i keep on typing with it. hoho.
other day i tried to connect this keyboard to my lappie and do the typing hahaha
yea i'm so addicted liddat.
very stupid indeed.
hehe.
ciao ~
watching cloudy with a change of meatballs tonite !
hope it's nice hehhehe.
3D yo !!

Growing up

some people said, hey look groing up is not as scary as it seems to be
well others might say, i don't wanna grow up, studying is honeymoon period in everyone life.
i hate to say this, but i'm beginning to see things as how it is right now.
sorry to say this post would be another gloomy Belle's pattern entry yay.

as time passed by, you get to experience with alot of things, and that lessons that you've learned from there, is a process of growing. it's impossible that you have learned nothing.
there is a saying, there is no story not worth listening.
i cannot agree more.
even i've worked a short while in compumed this kinda stupid company, i learned about how to pick the right boss as well.
learned things about labour law, how to protect yourself from wicked HR.
and most importantly, i started to think about responsibility.
think about what and where i want myself to be.
this process is surely tough, and it ain't easy.
for people like me, i would say i'm well protected, in term of you know, economically.
i never need to worry about money.
not saying i come from a wealthy family, but well i manage to get more than i need.
but today, i think i'm kinda contaminated.
as in, i've become so brand conscious.
i feel like, hey i want to get a bag that people could call it by names, and damn i want to get that designer's brand to wear on.
and that's what is way beyond i could afford. and at age of 23, it would be so shameful to get money from dad already.
i wanna make a wish list. by age of 30 i wish i would be making annual income of well "240000K"
muahhahahhahaha.
which is after deducting my luxurious expenses e.g make up, skin care, facial, gym, entertainment, traveling, charity, sponsoring parents to trip etc <3

ok so where am i again ?
oh i'm sorry talking about growing up,
i'm very aware that people around are so ambitious.
so ambitious until i feel that they are making friends with purpose.
like, it's not purely friendship thing anymore.
it frighten me, becz i feel lik i'm very innocent kinda ppl.
mayb i'm obsessed with the boundary thing. crap, like if i called my friends for a date, and i'm not suppose to mention anything about money, or business. that's not right.

ish.
i'm making this so complicated.
what i was trying to say is, i don't like making friends with a purpose.
and i really don't like people who approach other with purpose.
i'm very extreme is these cases
1. i would be very inferior when you don't wish to friend me, cz i would think i'm so worthless.
2. i would be very disgusted by your attitute when i know you wanna friend me for a purpose.

u know what... i'm really a sensitive person.
i used to be so proud, so proud that i'm right in all senses.
but today i regret so much on who i used to be.
now i jz need to get rid of the damn pounds, and get my social network back to life.

How the Hell

ARH !
hi, been a while since i last updated yea ?
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well, thought for a while and really, there is nth to be updated.
jz some same old crap that u don't wanna hear me brag abt it.
like seriously.
arh ok la, hey
at least i updated more often then the rest. huhuhu.
lik u know michelletehtiffanysohmingziandvernmay
which then reminds me of... how they are being busy wit work wtf.
i'm so screwed !
bah.

so cute

arh so cute my new layout <3
hello it's me again !
hahha being quite active lately !
so today Travis Ng went back to UK la, flight at 9 am. i'm gonna see him in 2 months time !
so excited hahaha.
teehee not excited cz i'm gonna see him again, but the trip with ze boifriend ! arh ~
romance here i come.
i told him let's get married in France.
loser, i think this is the n times i proposed to him already.
yea i'm so shameless liddat. yay.
really need to save up for the trip.
hehe
arh talking abt the e-shop, i'm all geared up, but can't launch it yet
becz i have totally no idea how to use that bloody photoshop ouch !
feeling damn noob
trial and error hor, liddat oso doesn't work and it's killing me now !

so i've jz celebrated my 23rd birthday :)
with my beloved friends.
i feel very insignificant to my family cz they nv celebrate birthday for me T____T
thanks to lao ma, chiad, ck, huey syg. they really shined my birthday.
and of cz my dearest bunch of lengs ~ Tiffuhni Sorh, Zizizi, Michelle the zyenn, Vern.
muuah ~ loveeeeeeeeee u all
hehehe.
cake is so lovely !!! i like it so much !
and tadaaaaaaa
very rare, cz i'm posting up picchas !
oh well mayb not, connection too slow edi.
hehehhe.
next time maybe woohoo ~

Missy Nail at One U sucks big time

hi blog, itz me again.
wanted to blog this and warn everyone not to go there.
so talking abt manicure and pedicure, it has been long that i haven have my fingers and toes done pretty pretty, and i suddenly felt like it. so the boifriend and i randomly went one u and walked in to Missy Nail. the girls were sitting there chatting and no clients were seen when i got in. then i asked if they had free slot to do mani and pedi they looked very reluctant.
like, u wan do then do dun wan den bye that kinda face yay.
fine.
the pedi girl was pissing me off becz for the many years of experience i have nv been instructed to put my legs here and there.
she was literally pad my legs and point to the sink, or to the towel. pad and point. pad and point. apply lotion SIMPLY apply no rub no massage.
wtf. i know i know. but this is so annoying i cannot refrain from using wtf wtf wtf !
super lan si her tone !
name tag there written JANICE.
be warned.
and then it was my mani, which was done by another girl, and she cut my nail bed, and it bleed. ehem. sharp pain i felt.
then she said oh ur skin very thin.
.......................................
for so many times, this was the 1st time i was cut and bleed ! wtf
mahfuhka.
so conclusion,
donch go.

holymolly

i jz realized i donch know how to make a new post via the new layout T______T
ish, i think i'm super low tech and should jz die in front of the computer yay (refering to my previous post, imma change all the wtfs to yays)
so how is everyone doing lately, it's alright u can ignore this question my social network is so narrow i beleive i have met my whole world last night at soul out yay.
i realize that my English is so deteriorated and it scared the hell out of me so today i decided to write up something in English, hence this post is up. yay.
hmm let's see what could be the content of this lame post
maybe i'll talk abt how to start own business yay ?
i'm becoming a entrepreneur wei
and i'm so stressed and scared. it's not even funny.
imagine the stress.
it's not jz sitting for an exam.
we're talking abt a business, woosh. anyway i still think i'm too green for this, with no experience.
only 4 limbs one fat body and an almost empty brain.
what can i do big ?
haihzzzzz.
zong zi it's not easy.
and the interior designer is seriously making BIG money i tell u.
BIG.
come to think of it, mayb i should jz use that amount of money and get some interior designing cert, then i'll make it big yay.
arh, lately so many ppl getting married.
i wan oso.
but mainly is becz i donch wanna stay at this place.
haihz.
sometimes i feel lik i have tones of u know..dark dark secrets.
i jz am not satisfied with my life now.
yay.
end of this post.
so what did i say at the beginning of the post ? will be talking abt starting own business right ?
yay.

Hi

As you can see i have a new layout now yay.
I think from now onwards i should change my wtf to yay or wat-so-ever
geez.
it has been almost 2 months that i'm jobless.
feel pretty sad about not having any income.
but i'm planning on doing own business now.
like an e boutique duh.
so ppl who love me, support support k.

With Love,
Belle

Office Hour- Balling boring geddit ? geddit ?

Not sure if I can access to blogspot in the company. So thought of writing here in Microsoft word 1st.
Working is boring.
Especially you’ve got nothing to do, today is already the 4th day, that I’m without a single thing to do.
Damn ! I wonder why did they hire a ppl for this position.
I wan a better job !
No mood to update already.
So my friends are now on their happy journey, I feel so envious :(
Wanna get my arse there also !
And I need to seriously serious to cut down my weight, I’m so damn over weighted.
Cz I’m eating like a pig in the office, what to do, free ma.
Then when it’s lunch time everyone in the office ajak you for lunch and then you cannot resist the food temptation so you eat a lot and eventually you’ll be expanding, horizontally wtf.
Aiyor ~ I get paid for being bored here !
I don’t like the feeling of not contributing at all wei.
Doing simple task lik the secondary school grad could do

ok so i can update this thing here in company.
i didn't even update for sucha long time and now i have the time to do that here
right in the office
becz i'm so effin bored..........................
omg.
oh side note, i wanna apply for a credit card :(

long lost Me

Hi, With refer to the tittle above, i'm writing in to bla bla bla bla.
so this is basically what i do everyday.
HR is seriously a pain in the ass. BORING.
and especially difficult for careless ppl lik me T______T
made MINOR, seriuosly minor mistake everyday.
Let ppl scolded almost everyday.
i'm so doomed !!! wtf. it's double sin when your manager is female and tend to be very emotional.
wanted to look into another kind of job next time.
marketing perhaps.
but presentation is not easy too. gosh.
seriously, the longer i live, i stupider i've become.
the lessons i've learned is do not judge from the cover of books.
i picked the pretty office but it's rotten inside.
SIGH. y oh y oh. god u doesn't love me ?!

i've tasted so many dead cats.
seriously hard for ppl lik me.
cz i fought back 100%, but here in office, i can't.
omg.
omfg.
actually i lik working.
because u get paid and and u're financially independent.
wat i dun lik is, i got REALLY lazy when i got home.
i dozed off twice without brushing teeth wei wtf.
slept at 8 and then woke up at 12 to brush teeth and den went back to sleep till next morning !
wat kind of life is this ?
and my room is uber dirty.
super canot tahan.
urgh !!!!
miss the girls.
Vern May if u're reading this.
i think 4 of us will only reunite when u come back from UK wtf.
take care everyone.
rmb my name is Belle ok. wtf.

Today

today i wake up feeling very lonely.
today i think that life is short why be fat.
today i know i have been judging too much.
today i am nothing and useless as i've always been.

revealing

i don't know how to give an appropriate tittle.
but today i'm going to talk about girls stuff, camwhore stuff, ineer stuff wtf. so many stuffs.
since the finding of friendster, it has been a heat thing to upload camwhore picture on the internet and so called sharing with friends, actually it's more than the public.
i think girls are scary creature. i seriously think alot of girls are scary tho they appeared to be harmless and sweet and cute and charming u know. but deep down inside, there were so many things running through their heads. u wouldn't know what they are thinking, or what's the intention behind.
this kind of girls appear everywhere, they were so many until ppl like me, with very small/narrow social network got the opportunity to meet with not one, but a few WTF.
i think it's pretty scary when some girls thought they are, really pretty wtf.
and then they think the whole wide world should go like what they wanted to be jz becz they think they are pretty wtf.
ok it's abit vague, lemme explain with examples la, easier to understand...
hmmm, ok like i'm a demanding girlfriend, becz my bf would jz love me and SHOULD buy me everything becz i'm pretty. something lik that la, it might be a shallow example but wat the heck can't think of any better example.
oh i'm quite impressed by those gfs who suck their bfs' money dry and den do not contribute.
sigh.

i hope i do not sound like a hypocrite, becz i admit that i spend quite alot of my bf's money especially on food hoho. but u see i contribute too.
it's like we 4 times we eat out there, i would pay for 1 of the meal.
and ar i would pay for the meal if it was me who brag him to being me there.
sound not fair right. but considering he gets 2K a month, and i only have........... 500 WTF.
and he never need to save when buying pressie to me, hence no advance planning.
me ? i need to squeez brian juice to think of things the need and want, and SAVE money from long long time ago.
i always start saving since november until his birthday in March wtf.
but it's all worth it la. i like his exciting look everytime he gets the surprise.
so now i hope this doesn't sound like a self-defense

ok now i don't know why i suddenly drag to this gf bf issue WTF !!!!!

my main point was suppose to be girls who like to camwhore with their cleavage or very sexual promt pose.

haih. but it can't be jz the tittle and then the sentence above and make the entire post right.
i think this blog has truly reveal what kind of person i am. never stay focus kind wtf.

again, BACK TO THE MAIN POINT.
i super cannot tahan girl who purposely take pic and show their bras and all.
cleavage still ok, as a C cup ppl i understand that sometimes our good sisters wanna come out and absorb abit vitamin D from the sun. and it's ok to show cleavage, but it's not ok when u purposely take picture of urself with revealing bras. it's intended
it's not sexy at all ok.
it's indeed VERY SLUTTY.

not gonna post up picture here i believe u can easily find it online, on ppl's blog, friendste, facebook profile etc etc (ahemcindyfromMDGahem)
haih.
what's ur intention for putting up picture lik that online? showing to the public ?
expect ppl to say wow sexy ? or attract freak like "oh baby u r so hot can i have sex wit u?"
and den u went to ur guy friend and say "yer got ppl wana have sex wit me"
WTF
HAIH
girls like that jz make me wanna slap them and squeeze their boobs until they burst like u know how u squeeze the balloon so hard and they will burst like that.
okie la.
i'm done.
damn free. hope i can get a well pay job asap.

beware, be cautious, be very afraid

the world is so chaotic now. first it's swine flu, which triggered back in Feb but only taken seriously in April.
now everyone's so afraid, wearing mask when they go out, no longer shake hands becz apparently u can get the germs/virus like that. no hugging. no dining in.
i still not sure what H1N1 is about, only know that it's dead causing virus, symptom is high fever and flu ?
so be careful everyone. wash ur hands, hygiene is very important.
(eh i jz noticed blogspot got MS office feature !!! spelling correction) wuuuuuu

ok, mom jz told me a shocking news, a friend of hers jz got robbed.
she was walking by the roadside after she parked her car at some housing area, and then suddenly blacked out. when she woke up she realized that she had been knocked on the head, fainted on the road side. the left/right side of her body was all scratched, bleeding, head bleeding, probably need stitches... eye swollen. this incident happened very very near my house.
terrible !!!! horrible !!!!
remind me of the snatching incident that i've experienced few years back.
nowhere is safe in Malaysia.
so girls, be very careful.
becz those bastards/jerks/asshole whatever bad names on earth would target on female
becz we r PHYSICALLY weak !!!
dun think u're black belt very geng !! jz be very careful !!
avoid walking by roadside, avoid being alone in public.
train ur lungs, becz u need a bigger lung to scream louder i guess.
sigh. wat the hell is wrong with those ppl !!!!!!!!!
i really hope the government could do something.
besides approving so construction projects that cause bad traffic can.

whoever knows how to pray... pray for the world ok.

very emo Belle.

that's it.

so that's it. i'm done with everything.
don't want anymore interception. pray pray pray everything goes well.
am looking for a job now :(
i really miss the girls. i miss the time when we all get together laughing at each other.
those were the days :(
very free now, stay at home forever (rawang is considered as my 2nd home).
i'm such a boring person !!!! friends working already.
thesis defense didn't go to well i guess.
didn't really present anything. they were asking so much questions and yea, tho i manage to answer, they didn't seem to satisfy with it. wuhuhuhu. i was so nervous until i begin to sweat in air con room, and need to wipe away sweat on my forehead.
that was how nervous i am.
but i can never feel so relieve after the defense. pheeew ~
duno what to work as. very fan !!!!!
officially hunting for a job now, wanted to start on May, duno if it's possible.
awww.... my resume doesn't seem too attractive oso. sigh.
hope Vern enjoys her UK trip, and it seems like everyone is going to UK too hahahha
right, hope they could suggest places to visit to after they came back
as i am also going by the end of the year ! can't wait !!!
only problem now is pounds, the currency seems to be increasing, but alot of rumour saying UK bank is going a really rough time and going to bankrupt anytime soon.
if lik dat the pounds, the money would have become plain paper wei.
sigh.
so fan.
wtf.
i find that my entry has never have any proper ending.
today i shall end this post by saying the end. WTF.
the end.

ish

life cannot be happier without college. at least for now. hehe.
thesis due, final's over, upcoming is the defense.
but i can't feel more relieve.
oooh, life.
tmr vern flying to UK, hereby, wish her sun sun lei lei, have a nice and safe trip :)
everyone's doing their own things, and i'm looking for a well paid job
bcz i'm in need of $$$.
arh, life.
overheard some kids' conversation the other day
"the teacher very good one, let us play in her class"
"wa my teacher better lo ! she even allow psp"
wtf ?
ahahhahahhahhahhaha but bring back alot of school time memory...
thinking back of the old times really makes me wanna go back even more.
just when i am about to finish uni, suddenly i miss my girls so much so much.
wish those times we've spent together, the jokes, the class replacements.
the assignments, how we encourage each other and how we look at each others' stress look
how we have small fights over projects.
oooh i just miss those days.
becz it's over, and it would never come back.......
all i can think about now is to maintain the friendship.
hope that we won't change to much, if do, to a better self i hope :)
good luck everyone.

with love :)

fate

i think this should make a really good research topic.
but it's not science.
it's hard, if not impossible to measure, to compare, to make hypothesis, to validate to test the realiabilty so on and so forth.
i might use meta analysis, but that could drive you nuts becauce u will then have no idea of what am i trying to say.
....
sometimes, i feel that when it's not meant to be then it's not.
i think i'm a creepy creature.
i am made up of money. but seriously, without money, how can one survive right.
even if you wanted to plant vege or feed chicken on your own, you would need money to buy soil, to buy fertiliser and so on right.
now i gotta admit i calculate too much. i'm too calculative, and i'm too busybody.
it's so hard to live a happy life like me.
by chance, i visited a blog of an old friend of mine, we lost contact for years, and we are no longer friends.
and her bf treated her very well i would say.
sometimes i would think, becasue i have the strong urge to see beautiful things
and i can't be with someone whom i do not like their physical appearance... i lost chances.
i let go some guys that i might love to spend my whole life with.
i got togehter wth my current bf becasue i adore his face. i'm serious, i even thick skin enough to be friended him when he had a gf back then.
sigh.
i duno, i believe in karma one.
i love new experience, i love surprises i love to try out new things and i like people who are innovative and have vision for future.
i duno how come i never met any friends that could become my BFF..
i started to think it's my problem.
no one is perfect i know.
but i believe that some people could just click so well that they can become BFF
when they have arguements they could talk about it not feeling offensive and defensive.
i am so tired in maintaining friendship.
because i feel that when i disclose too much, people tend to step over the boundary
they do not self-reflect. and i hate that feeling.
i begin to dislike them.
because i think they are wrong and i know they can't take opinion.
they would cry and say i'm mean.
that's how i would feel after sometime when i got really close with someone.
thinking back i really didn't have much close girl friends.
i'm sucha failure.
or my perception is wrong....
close friends don't need to disclose that much to each other
i don't know.
i'm so contradicting i'm afraid i'm gonna be crazy someday.
this is a free flow writing so i'm not thinking appropriately, so do not feel offensive i'm not talking about anyone, i'm jz talking about myself.
and seriously, i love the feeling of being pampered too.

Gerard

omg. i'm. so. DEAD.
HOW COME... i tot he left already ?
sei lor.
i still rmb once i went into his office and had this kinda defense with him for PSY303.
and i DIDN"T understand a single questions he asked.
OMG.
ok i give up the 5%.
but i'm so gonne stoned there for 20 minutes.
i know ppl here might be thinking what the crap i'm talking about.
yes, it's the ultimate scary thesis defense.
mine is fallen on the 24th of April.
ngam ngam after Tiffany's soh ultimate big day. wuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu.
i so wanna cry.
can u pls spare a birthday wish for me huh tiffany soh xiao jie hahahahhahaha.
omg i'm so freaked out !!!!!!!!
and i haven collected back all the questionnaires. ARH.
sei liao. byebye.

your friendly blogger

hello here i am again. bragging about boredom.
hhehehehe in this post. imma not gonna sigh. ok. imma replace with hehe huhu or wuwu. wtf.
becz sigh is not a good word. imma think positively. imma be optimistic.
huhu.
so boring.
only start running research for thesis tmr.
will it be too late?
oh blame it on ERB ok. i damn scare i can't finish it in time.
i have around one month time.
huhu.
i need some help.
no, i need alot of help.
to complete my discussion.
those who love me and know how to do, come offer me some help.
sprinkle me wit love wtf.

another pointless post.
can tell i'm plain bored right.
huhu. wuwuwuwuwuwuwuwu.

sometimes

sometimes i really hope ERB consists of all sleepy heads so they won't reject my proposal wtf.
yes.
my ERB is being rejected again. bah. but nvm. i've come to a solution.
so it'll be fine !!!!!!! (i hope wtf) arh... wanna cry already.
if it doesn't den i won't be able to complete thesis so whoever it is up there. pls hear my prayer.
emo emo emo emo emo emo emo

***
sad story aside. and i've got nth else to talk abt SIGH
SO SIAN ONE.
long time never make up and go out already.
arh !!!!!